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Do you ever feel like you are in this situation and some feelings are bubbling with no idea why and what caused that? Do you feel like you are overreacting to a situation that you shouldn't? Do you ever feel like when you try to bury some feelings down or work your way through them but they keep floating around like a bad cloud that doesn't go away irritating you and making you uncomfortable?

This might get personal and that is not easy to get to but this issue in not to be neglected. 
I feel like this at many times and no idea if that's normal or if others experience that too?

Is it repressed emotions that make their way up to the surface when triggered a similar situation or is it my unconscious self trying to make my way through the situation or is it both together bubbling up? So many question with little answers that I can't make up my mind to. 

For the past two months I have been trying to identify and release my emotions, find my triggers and become more self aware. But the more I focus, the more tangled I find myself. 
I have no idea what the hell is going up with my mind, why when everything might be going just fine and I come across a situation I fall in the loop of surfacing old emotions when I desperately am trying to show others!
Am I handling them wrong? Am I not connected enough with my body? Did I not heal myself from emotions I don't even remember why they are there? Did I make tiny boxes inside my mind and lock them in but the key is rusty now? *thinking as brainy from Super girl*

Or is this emotional energy? Am I not uncovering my emotions well? 

I'm literally losing my mind over this. These days I am struggling with finding the right emotions to express them as I am kind of failing myself and that puts out ways to deal with situations that first I don't have the answers to and second I DON'T WANT THAT TO BE PUT OUT.

I know I have to get to the root of it but how? I have been reading, researching and trying to find solutions or at least answers but so far google was not helpful.
I am projecting out emotions, I know I don't want to be projecting and helpless.

Google says I have to understand and liberate myself from that emotional baggage but fails to provide other means than yoga & exercises. But Psychology, here I come. I will not rest till I get to the bottom of this. 

And a note to myself: You will find your way, your will make it through, you are the only way to untangle this, feeling lost now is normal but you will get your answers. 
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I know this post might be all over the place, but I'm trying to find my safe space so thank you for making it to the end and sparing those minutes of your day to share this with me, if you have similar stories or some answers for me, let me know below in the comments or head over to my IG @Lameesshousha so we can talk!​
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